Logic has no imagination
"Failing isn't the end of the world. Quitting is."
- moi?
"At the end of this, no one will remember what you said. But people will remember what you do."
- Arthur Smith, C.E.O. of GS1 Canada
"i want what all men want. i just want it more."
- Kobe Bryant
"Heart is what separates the good from the great"
- Michael Jordan
"Sometimes...
only the struggle makes it worth it...
only the pain makes it sweet...
and only victory is the answer"
- Nike
"When that blood gets riled up, you're still going to see some of what they say is immaturity."
"It's not what you know. It's what you can prove."
-Denzel Washington in Training Day
Lyrics:
Kanye West - I Wonder
Find your dreams come true
And I wonder if you know
What it means, what it means
[chorus]
And I wonder if you know
What it means, what it means
And I wonder if you know
What it means to find your dreams
I've been waiting on this my whole life
These dreams be waking me up at night
You say I think I'm never wrong
You know what, maybe you're right, aight
[chorus]
You say he get on your fucking nerves
You hope that he get what he deserves, word
Do you even remember what the issue is
You just trying to find where the tissue is
You can still be who you wish you is
It ain't happen yet
And that's what the intuition is
When you hop back in the car
Drive back to the crib
Run back to their arms
The smokescreens
The chokes and the screams
You ever wonder what it all really mean
[chorus]
And I'm back on my grind
A psychic read my lifeline
Told me in my lifetime
My name would help light up the Chicago skyline
And that's what I'm
Seven o'clock, that's primetime
Heaven'll watch, God calling from the hot lines
Why he keep giving me hot lines
I'm a star, how could I not shine
How many ladies in the house
How many ladies in the house without a spouse
Something in your blouse got me feeling so aroused
What you about
On that independent shit
Trade it all for a husband and some kids
You ever wonder what it all really mean
You ever wonder if you'll find your dreams
Friday, August 29, 2003
at 2am, brushing my teeth, i realize more..... my best days are behind me... my best days were in gr 10.... 2,3 years ago.... they're gone now.... i look,act,and think different from back then.... i look a lot worse.... i must admit i looked a lot damn better back then... i look like a piece of crap these days, and it'll only get worse... call me vain, call me self-concious, but i know my place in this world.....
i act a lot different than back then.... my actions are still mostly led by my heart, not by my head.. so a lot of ppl may think i'm hot-headed, immature, stupid, retarded, etc. but i know what im doing... my exterior is like that...my interior? thats a whole diff story... but why is my exterior so contrasting to my interior? why am i so 'fake' in a sense?
my thinking has improved incredibly though.... going through mr. smith classes and opening my eyes to the real world has helped.... these events are called 'experience' of course.... i'm a lot more aware, and street smart.... academically? oh i'm going WAY downhill... 2 years ago, if i was that focused, i woulda got the 95,96 % i wanted this past year in school (and not bomb chem like a madman).... instead, i freaking stayed in summer/lazy mode and half assed my way to a 92... and to get rejected by queens.... i was extremely embarassed.... obviously i'm not good enough....
i wouldnt've realized this all if i didnt look through some stuff... not necessarily mine, but i observe a lot... i realize my role/significance in this world, which is currently at absolutely nothing...
i know i have a tough life in front of me, and the best years are behind me... but i have this urge to make the best of it.... i want results out of myself..... but i dunno what they are, or how i'll achieve em....
what the hell am i blabbling on about? i have no clue... just feeling pity for myself? HELL NO.... i have no respect for ppl who feel pity for themselves... i really dont, and i have proof of it.... i'm just blabbling what was on my mind.... im not feeling pity for myself... i'm not trying to get attention.... leave, dont read this for all i care...
~sigh~ bring on university life... i'll probably enjoy it more... i'll probably stress again though, and waste $1200 worth of accutane.....
