Logic has no imagination "Failing isn't the end of the world. Quitting is."
- moi?

"At the end of this, no one will remember what you said. But people will remember what you do."
- Arthur Smith, C.E.O. of GS1 Canada

"i want what all men want. i just want it more."
- Kobe Bryant

"Heart is what separates the good from the great"
- Michael Jordan

only the struggle makes it worth it...
only the pain makes it sweet...
and only victory is the answer"

- Nike

"When that blood gets riled up, you're still going to see some of what they say is immaturity."

"It's not what you know. It's what you can prove."
-Denzel Washington in Training Day
Kanye West - I Wonder
Find your dreams come true
And I wonder if you know
What it means, what it means

And I wonder if you know
What it means, what it means
And I wonder if you know
What it means to find your dreams

I've been waiting on this my whole life
These dreams be waking me up at night
You say I think I'm never wrong
You know what, maybe you're right, aight


You say he get on your fucking nerves
You hope that he get what he deserves, word
Do you even remember what the issue is
You just trying to find where the tissue is
You can still be who you wish you is
It ain't happen yet
And that's what the intuition is
When you hop back in the car
Drive back to the crib
Run back to their arms
The smokescreens
The chokes and the screams
You ever wonder what it all really mean


And I'm back on my grind
A psychic read my lifeline
Told me in my lifetime
My name would help light up the Chicago skyline
And that's what I'm
Seven o'clock, that's primetime
Heaven'll watch, God calling from the hot lines
Why he keep giving me hot lines
I'm a star, how could I not shine
How many ladies in the house
How many ladies in the house without a spouse
Something in your blouse got me feeling so aroused
What you about
On that independent shit
Trade it all for a husband and some kids
You ever wonder what it all really mean
You ever wonder if you'll find your dreams
Tuesday, January 31, 2006

i expect to be disappointed now

thats how much this sucks for me morally....




posted by jonathan at 12:50 p.m. ||

Monday, January 30, 2006

busy... BUSYYYYYYY week...
no starcraft, no nothing


posted by jonathan at 1:00 p.m. ||

Thursday, January 26, 2006


im so demoralized

confidence and mental moral has never been so low


posted by jonathan at 5:15 p.m. ||

Tuesday, January 24, 2006

Has someone taken your faith?
Its real, the pain you feel
The life, the love
You die to heal
The hope that starts
The broken hearts
You trust, you must

Is someone getting the best, the best, the best, the best of you?


posted by jonathan at 12:18 a.m. ||

Monday, January 23, 2006

so... i'm supposed to post about winter retreat... and i guess i will.. though im really in a poor mood.. 1/3 is fail.... guess i failed...

everytime i get arrogant, God humbles me.. i'll be humbled everytime till i learn.. God obviously believes in conditioning...

so.. my notes/thoughts of winter retreat in chronological order (i.e. notes/thoughts that occured in my head from friday till sunday)

- i expect the world of myself, and nothing of the world
-if one died for all, then all died
-the truth divides... unity is irrelevant
- purpose of the church is to give the truth
- child of God = work of God =/ [does not equal] work of man
- i cant do singspiration in a group setting.. too high of a probability of conformity or i'll find myself singing just for the music and not the lyrics...

so, to beat that, i devised a plan... i go by myself and
1) listen to the lyrics
2) read the lyrics (no music)
3) understand the lyrics
4) listen to the music
5) sing what i mean
6) combine music + lyrics = singing

havent really tried it... i just listen and read and try to understand these days... i dunno how to analyze the music or what not

i also drew a picture of a pot boiling with pasta in it to remind me of an analogy i thought of... but.. now i forget...

it's my belief that retreats give spiritual highs.. like a drug... i try not to do drugs...

enough of retreat, im not in the mood

damn it, being humbled is a hard pill to swallow


posted by jonathan at 5:08 p.m. ||

Friday, January 20, 2006

im INFINITELY frustrated and pissed

next post will be about retreat

you dont wanna read that

stay away for a good month


posted by jonathan at 1:57 a.m. ||

Wednesday, January 11, 2006

so.. in video games, the purpose is to beat it... right? to win it all... to beat all the bosses and all the computer opponents, etc.

after you finish and beat the game... what happens... you've achieved your goal... you beat the bosses.. game over... and the credits show...do you play the game again? or do you move on to the next game? this game is not a challenge to you anymore.. there's no meaning to it anymore...

what if... life was like a video game...

when you die, the credits show.... what happens to the game... what is the next purpose... is there any more purpose...

or is it this... when you die, it's not the end of the game... it's just the next stage?

life is like a video game.... but i cant picture how it progresses....


posted by jonathan at 10:28 p.m. ||

Tuesday, January 10, 2006

wise men do not have to be Christian...


posted by jonathan at 11:36 p.m. ||

Monday, January 09, 2006

so after 4, 5 days of denial and refusal, i went to go check my marks for 1st term.....



posted by jonathan at 3:09 p.m. ||

Sunday, January 08, 2006

dan brown is a 1 trick pony... read all 4 of his books now, just finished angels & demons... in my opinion, the best of the 4....

i would rate from best to worst as follows:

angels & demons
digital fortress
da vinci code
deception point

da vinci code was quite lame actually...




cover letters.... how do i do em?


listened to some chopping, ludwig, and i'll be bach yesterday... good concert, thumbs up


posted by jonathan at 4:09 p.m. ||

Monday, January 02, 2006

-ability to ignore
-defy the odds
-gut instinct


posted by jonathan at 11:11 p.m. ||

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