Logic has no imagination "Failing isn't the end of the world. Quitting is."
- moi?

"At the end of this, no one will remember what you said. But people will remember what you do."
- Arthur Smith, C.E.O. of GS1 Canada

"i want what all men want. i just want it more."
- Kobe Bryant

"Heart is what separates the good from the great"
- Michael Jordan

only the struggle makes it worth it...
only the pain makes it sweet...
and only victory is the answer"

- Nike

"When that blood gets riled up, you're still going to see some of what they say is immaturity."

"It's not what you know. It's what you can prove."
-Denzel Washington in Training Day
Kanye West - I Wonder
Find your dreams come true
And I wonder if you know
What it means, what it means

And I wonder if you know
What it means, what it means
And I wonder if you know
What it means to find your dreams

I've been waiting on this my whole life
These dreams be waking me up at night
You say I think I'm never wrong
You know what, maybe you're right, aight


You say he get on your fucking nerves
You hope that he get what he deserves, word
Do you even remember what the issue is
You just trying to find where the tissue is
You can still be who you wish you is
It ain't happen yet
And that's what the intuition is
When you hop back in the car
Drive back to the crib
Run back to their arms
The smokescreens
The chokes and the screams
You ever wonder what it all really mean


And I'm back on my grind
A psychic read my lifeline
Told me in my lifetime
My name would help light up the Chicago skyline
And that's what I'm
Seven o'clock, that's primetime
Heaven'll watch, God calling from the hot lines
Why he keep giving me hot lines
I'm a star, how could I not shine
How many ladies in the house
How many ladies in the house without a spouse
Something in your blouse got me feeling so aroused
What you about
On that independent shit
Trade it all for a husband and some kids
You ever wonder what it all really mean
You ever wonder if you'll find your dreams
Tuesday, July 31, 2007

"you're not always going to be successful. but if you're afraid to fail, you dont deserve to be successful"

-charles barkley

posted by jonathan at 7:53 p.m. ||

Monday, July 30, 2007

it's interesting... ppl you dont talk to for the longest time, still know you best.. some ppl just know you... no matter how much you deny it..


actual conversation at the nba 3 on 3 on the weekend:

J: yeh.. i saw sam mitchell.. he has chicken legs
A: yeh.. most basketball players do.. i do too
J: no you dont... i do! look!
A: nah man... i have chicken legs.. at least you have veins and stuff



that that that that that that dont kill me, can only makes me stronger....

but it does make me tired.. very tired

im tired

lets get lost tonight..


posted by jonathan at 11:10 p.m. ||

Matchbox 20 - How Far We've Come

Waking up at the start of the end of the world,
but its feeling just like every morning before,
now I wonder what my life is going to mean if its gone,
the cars are moving like a half a mile an hour if that
I started staring at the passengers waving goodbye
can you tell me what was ever really special about me all this time

but I believe the world is burning to the ground
oh well I guess we're gonna find out

let's see how far we've come
let's see how far we've come

Well I, believe, its all, coming to an end
oh well, I guess, we're gonna pretend,
let's see how far we've come
let's see how far we've come

I think its turning to a crock but I don't really know
I can't remember caring for an hour or so
started crying and I couldn't stop myself
I started running but there was no where to run to
I sat down on the street and took a look at myself
said where you going you know the world is heading for hell
say your goodbyes if you've got someone you can say goodbye to


its gone gone baby its all gone
there is no one on the corner and there's no one at home
it was cool cool, it was just all cool
now it's over for me and it's over for you
well its gone gone baby its all gone
there is no one on the corner and there's no one at home
well it was cool cool, it was just all cool
now it's over for me and it's over for you



posted by jonathan at 12:49 a.m. ||

Sunday, July 29, 2007

i kinda expect things not to go my ways anymore..

it wouldnt surprise me if nothing goes my way anymore...

just find another way to screw me over.. it'll be interesting

bad luck?


posted by jonathan at 1:29 a.m. ||

Saturday, July 28, 2007

all i need is someone to believe in me

hate it when ppl give up on me.

encouragement does work?


posted by jonathan at 2:15 a.m. ||

Tuesday, July 24, 2007

im injured again

pain doesnt seem to go away

2007 aint going well...

what else could go wrong?

wait, be careful what you ask for...

might not want to hear the answer...

be careful what you wish for..


posted by jonathan at 11:45 p.m. ||

Monday, July 23, 2007

as it states on the left column,

"it's not what you know. it's what you can prove"

less talking. more action... get rid of the old habits!


posted by jonathan at 1:28 a.m. ||

Thursday, July 19, 2007

i really really really really really dont care for your opinion


i dont need to be put down. save it for yourself. whatever makes you feel better


posted by jonathan at 1:09 a.m. ||

Monday, July 16, 2007

when i first started running, my mentality was to save up energy for the end and sprint to the finish line..

foolish i tell you

many times, the energy is saved for a little 100m dash at the end. do ppl really run 100m of a 5000m + race? coast through 4900m and run 100 of it? does that make any sense? why coast through most of the race to run a little bit.. why 'save up' that energy for 1/50 or less of a race when you can spread it throughout the whole race, going as fast as you can for as long as you can?

andrenaline will get you through the last part of the race as well...

so why coast through life? what are we saving up for? tomorrow may not come. spread the wealth and treasures out. one day we must spend what we save... why not make it today?

*edit: for those who cant tell, i quit on this post about 25 words in... i think i officially have ADHD... or laziness syndrome...


posted by jonathan at 9:35 p.m. ||

Sunday, July 15, 2007

always under scrutiny

thats alright

what doesnt kill you, makes you stronger

or does it...

oh well, what would i know

im an idiot im told


posted by jonathan at 2:45 a.m. ||

Tuesday, July 10, 2007

wasting my life away


save me


posted by jonathan at 8:45 p.m. ||

Monday, July 09, 2007

i've been naked for almost 2 months.

no oakleys = exposed

maybe they will bring me luck. then i wouldnt suck...


posted by jonathan at 11:19 p.m. ||

Sunday, July 08, 2007

ppl value their own opinions WAY WAY too much


posted by jonathan at 11:49 p.m. ||

my organizational behaviour prof (Teal McAteer-Early) once randomly spewed in class that: "it's not the shit that happens to you, it's how you deal with it"

i must say, i dealt with it poorly

must get on the right train track

2007 is turning out to be the worst year possible for me.... is there time to still turn it around


posted by jonathan at 6:11 p.m. ||

Friday, July 06, 2007

"I can understand booing me. I was the new guy here, there were some expectations, and I sucked. But, I mean . you're talking about Jason Bay, one of the most consistent hitters in the big leagues. That's pretty weak to boo him. If you're loving that player when he's going well, you've got to stick with him when he's not."

- Pirates 1B Adam Laroche

posted by jonathan at 7:22 p.m. ||

it's not easy

it just aint easy

i forgot what i wanted to type

one day i will flip

where's my trust? where's my faith? im afraid to trust. im afraid to have faith. because im afraid i'll be wrong.


posted by jonathan at 6:35 p.m. ||

Wednesday, July 04, 2007

ok, i dont know anything

im just going in circles...


and again

and again

and again

and again

and... you get the idea...

like a dog chasing its tail


posted by jonathan at 11:58 p.m. ||

ever since i was young, i wanted to fit in with the popular crowd... the 'normal' crowd

i've never figured out why... was it cause i wanted to be a 'normal' person?

i was pretty stupid, cause the popular crowd sucks

hating myself


posted by jonathan at 10:18 p.m. ||

the problem is that things have been too easy...

when things are too easy, i become lazy... when i become lazy, my full effort isnt there... and things go in a downward spiral....

then things get hard... too hard...

when things are hard, it's easy to be demoralized... when im demoralized, i feel like giving up... then things go in a downward spiral

things are either too easy or too hard in life...

is ability a gift or a curse?

is it a choice?


posted by jonathan at 12:04 a.m. ||

Monday, July 02, 2007

someone just needs to believe


posted by jonathan at 1:54 p.m. ||


money does not inspire. not in the long term. only in the short term

money is not the object of life. it's just a byproduct

when athletes retire, they're putting off millions and millions of dollars... but they'd rather spend time with their families. they'd rather not put themselves through the work that's required to play at a high level. because the money isnt worth it to them. of course, one can argue that millions of dollars is nothing to athletes, but something to the average joe... um, lets talk in relative terms... if you were sick and tired of your work, why would you work there at your current rate?

to make ends meet? survival is the inspiration, not money.

to maintain the life of luxury? selfish desire is the inspiration, not money.

to have something to do and not be bored? it aint for the $$$....

but of course there are obvious exceptions. or maybe im just listing the exceptions.. what is the rule? what is the exception?


the point is... i dont gamble or do anything for the money... money is just a byproduct.

money means nothing to me. money is the byproduct of my desire to win and succeed at everything.

my problem is that i count winning and losing by my results. not by my efforts. being a results-oriented person doesnt make one happy. just like doing things with money as the pure inspiration doesnt make one happy...

im not happy


posted by jonathan at 11:05 a.m. ||

Sunday, July 01, 2007

once upon a time, i had everything

now, i have nothing

when i had everything, i felt like i had nothing

when i have nothing, it feels worse than having nothing... if that makes sense

God takes, God gives. God, what do you want from me?


posted by jonathan at 6:07 p.m. ||

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