Logic has no imagination "Failing isn't the end of the world. Quitting is."
- moi?

"At the end of this, no one will remember what you said. But people will remember what you do."
- Arthur Smith, C.E.O. of GS1 Canada

"i want what all men want. i just want it more."
- Kobe Bryant

"Heart is what separates the good from the great"
- Michael Jordan

only the struggle makes it worth it...
only the pain makes it sweet...
and only victory is the answer"

- Nike

"When that blood gets riled up, you're still going to see some of what they say is immaturity."

"It's not what you know. It's what you can prove."
-Denzel Washington in Training Day
Kanye West - I Wonder
Find your dreams come true
And I wonder if you know
What it means, what it means

And I wonder if you know
What it means, what it means
And I wonder if you know
What it means to find your dreams

I've been waiting on this my whole life
These dreams be waking me up at night
You say I think I'm never wrong
You know what, maybe you're right, aight


You say he get on your fucking nerves
You hope that he get what he deserves, word
Do you even remember what the issue is
You just trying to find where the tissue is
You can still be who you wish you is
It ain't happen yet
And that's what the intuition is
When you hop back in the car
Drive back to the crib
Run back to their arms
The smokescreens
The chokes and the screams
You ever wonder what it all really mean


And I'm back on my grind
A psychic read my lifeline
Told me in my lifetime
My name would help light up the Chicago skyline
And that's what I'm
Seven o'clock, that's primetime
Heaven'll watch, God calling from the hot lines
Why he keep giving me hot lines
I'm a star, how could I not shine
How many ladies in the house
How many ladies in the house without a spouse
Something in your blouse got me feeling so aroused
What you about
On that independent shit
Trade it all for a husband and some kids
You ever wonder what it all really mean
You ever wonder if you'll find your dreams
Thursday, July 31, 2008

i cant believe jordan is 45....


posted by jonathan at 10:31 p.m. ||

Tuesday, July 29, 2008

i am JUST discovering queen.... forgive me

Cause love's such an old fashioned word
And love dares you, to care for people on the edge of the night
And love dares you, to change our way of caring about ourselves
This is our last dance, this is our last dance
This is ourselves, under pressure
Under pressure, pressure


why do ppl have to be sore losers on my softball team??


posted by jonathan at 11:05 p.m. ||

my arm/shoulder hurts so much. i want to puke from the pain


federer... you play with fire...


fascinating article about humans:



posted by jonathan at 9:22 p.m. ||

Monday, July 28, 2008

funniest thing i've read in a while:



got chasing darkness... now i gotta read it.. CANT WAIT


posted by jonathan at 11:32 p.m. ||

Sunday, July 27, 2008

tennis is great watching in person

im all softballed out... my arm is dead..

i've eaten 4 meals in 2 days.... 2 each day... this cant carry on.. SO unhealthy... i feel so nasty when i dont eat in the morning.. .blah...

been catching up on emails.. so many more to go...

in a blank state... back to square one


posted by jonathan at 10:51 p.m. ||

Friday, July 25, 2008

possibly the worst thing to do in life is to settle


posted by jonathan at 6:28 p.m. ||



posted by jonathan at 12:57 a.m. ||

Wednesday, July 23, 2008

blah. i dont want to watch the finals on sunday anymore...

federer breaks my heart again and again



posted by jonathan at 11:56 p.m. ||

Tuesday, July 22, 2008

im gonna have to be a villain

whatever's necessary

It has to start somewhere It has to start sometime
What better place than here, what better time than now?


posted by jonathan at 11:14 p.m. ||

Monday, July 21, 2008

timing is very important in life

one can have all the skills necessary to do something. but if the timing is off, it's a failure
one can have no skills or capability to do something, but if they have the right timing, they have a much better chance at succeeding than everyone else

my timing is very poor these days. i dont know why. i used to thrive on timing. it was key to everything.


posted by jonathan at 11:15 p.m. ||

Sunday, July 20, 2008

dark knight was amazing. but everyone knows by now cause everyone has seen it, other than the unfortunate few.

the bad thing about good movies is the hype. cause hype brings retards to the theatres. these retards piss me off. cant ppl watch a good movie without acting like fags? almost got into 2 fights. once lining up, once at ribfest. some ppl just have no class. wtf is a 60 year old fat duck (typo?) trying to do wanting to fight me. watch too much ufc for his own good me thinks.

joker was good. why are ppl scared of him? how is he scary? he's amusing. doing things for no reason. maybe im just a lunatic for understanding him

why so serious?


frustrating day today. probably carryover from yesterday

the timing of everything was just off.. irritated me
the rain threw everything off... blah
tennis gets rained out.
no appetite for a free meal at the keg
softball gets rained out

still had good company. was good to be at peace.

still. frustrating

and now it's back to work



posted by jonathan at 10:46 p.m. ||

Saturday, July 19, 2008

the hype is unbearable...

15 hours...



posted by jonathan at 12:34 a.m. ||

Friday, July 18, 2008

i feel like im gonna be the last one to see dark knight...

i think i could hurt someone if they revealed ANYTHING to me...


im lost again


posted by jonathan at 12:44 a.m. ||

Wednesday, July 16, 2008

i know it's been a while sweetheart
we hardly talk
i was doing my thing

a while.. more like.. a few years.. thats only a while to some


i've never understood what's so attractive about a girl with a 6 pack...

completely drained. the sun is no good to me

trying to avoid dehydration


posted by jonathan at 10:12 p.m. ||

Tuesday, July 15, 2008

i got so much 2nd hand smoke that i feel it in my throat... disgusting..


i need to program my computer so that it shuts down at 11pm



posted by jonathan at 10:43 p.m. ||

Sunday, July 13, 2008

are earwigs the new centipedes? i've seen 2 around my house the past 2 days.. the last one i killed a few hours ago was HUGEEEEEEE...



forbes lists the 15 richest fictional characters... bruce wayne is 7th!! batmannnnnnnnnn

one thing i've noted is that they're all single....

can ppl not get rich and be married? haha.. guess you gotta lose half...


posted by jonathan at 10:57 p.m. ||

Saturday, July 12, 2008

intriguing article: http://online.wsj.com/article/SB121570593117842857.html?mod=yhoofront

reminds me of angels and demons and da vince code by that crappy dan brown


all i do is read reviews of dark knight

why wont the movie come sooner.. i've waited more than a year already...


why so serious in 7 days


posted by jonathan at 12:39 a.m. ||

Thursday, July 10, 2008

When you were here before
Couldn't look you in the eye

I don't care if it hurts
I want to have control
I want a perfect body
I want a perfect soul
I want you to notice
When I'm not around

Whatever makes you happy
Whatever you want

What the hell am I doing here?
I don't belong here
I don't belong here.


This is what you get when you mess with us

And for a minute there, I lost myself, I lost myself


this all makes sense if you're me. just enjoy the music.


posted by jonathan at 10:16 p.m. ||

Tuesday, July 08, 2008

softball with my weeknight team definitely hasnt been a great experience...

it's just different.. the team is made up of mostly 30 something year olds who just want to drink. they are highly competitive yet unskilled. they think too highly of themselves and too lowly of others. they are impressed by routine plays, but also anything they do. they can cheer an error-filled hit as long as they get on base and/or score.

i may have enjoyed this..... 10 years ago. but not now. there's something to be said about acting appropriately. maybe i dont get joy in other ppl making errors. i only get joy when i make a good play. trash talking the other team seems childish. maybe im losing my youth.

some ppl on the team are quite indecent as well..
last week, i didnt take my bats out cause the other team forfeited and we were just playing for fun. i go away to the washroom and come back to find that my bat bag was missing a bat. i feared someone stole it, so i asked around. apparently this jerk on my team took it cause he didnt see it anywhere... thus he went to go find it himself. jerk. you dont see me reaching into your wallet to find stuff

today, there was huge rain. and we saw lightning. so we called the game and waited 10mins to see what would happen. i sat in my car and my car was parked next to this teammate and his son who is also on the team. the son was throwing a fit cause he's some 18year old jerk who doesnt know better. he was whining bout how we could play through this all. clearly, he doesnt value life. he values this stupid game of softball over his life. some sense needs to be knocked into him. when he opens the door, it slams into my passenger side mirror. i go out and check and of course there's a black line mark. he just nods a sorry and stays in his car. jerk. wanting to use my bat and always asking where my bat is. im never bringing it again just cause i dont like him. ya, im a jerk like that too.

after coming out cause lightning stopped, we went to play for another 5mins. then heavy rain came and the game was finally cancelled. a few ppl on the team were whining and saying we should want to and love to play through this. i feel sorry for these ppl. maybe i just cant relate. is life so dull that this softball game is all you have to look forward to? that is sad to me. sports isnt the be all and end all of life. sure, it's a great way to escape from reality for a few hours. but afterwards, it's snap back to reality..

this is partially why i believe in God. there must be more than this.. i cannot picture my life, and do not want my life's purpose to be playing a meaningless softball game, wanting to win, and then wanting to celebrate by drinking beer and getting drunk.

how do i get this point across to my team... whom i will most likely not be playing for next year.. i want better competition than this. i dont want this egotistical team.


EDIT: only on this softball team could the best hitter, statistically and in reality, hit 2nd last in the lineup. thats me of course. no way would anyone want their best hitter hitting higher in the order.. at the top of the line up? dad and son of course. (i dont need to mention the dad makes the lineups right?) both the same type of hitters... claw their way on.. except this only works when no one's on base. when someone's on base, all they do is ground into a force out, which is useless. the jerk son think he's jeter. has it on the back of his jersey, with the same number, and the same stance. too bad he hits like a 3 year old boy and runs like one too. likes to swear a lot though. and likes to think he's the best player on the best team in the league. he honestly thinks he's a yankee. it's really ridiculous.

why dont i say this to their face? i guess the timing's not right. what's also ridiculous is that this team qualified to play provincials cause they played in 2 spn tournaments... i'll play with them just to see what the competition is like. the team will get blown out, there's no doubt.


posted by jonathan at 9:51 p.m. ||

Monday, July 07, 2008

i would prefer to camp forever. dont need a computer. dont need the burdens of the world.
but that'd be wasting my life. according to john piper




im DEVESTATED that federer lost... my goodness... i wish i got to watch it


need to trust in Him


posted by jonathan at 10:58 p.m. ||

Saturday, July 05, 2008

maybe i really am afraid of failure...


be like joe pike.

focused. intense. detailed. with purpose


create in me a clean heart o' God
and renew a right spirit within me


posted by jonathan at 2:35 a.m. ||

Friday, July 04, 2008

i have forgotten why i dont put deep thoughts or lengthy posts on here

i think it was a combination of laziness and trying to keep it vague and secretive

now i think it's cause i'd rather talk in person to ppl, than for them to read about me on my blog. the purpose of this blog? i have no clue. amusement?

oh, and im lazy.



posted by jonathan at 12:12 a.m. ||

Tuesday, July 01, 2008

things i cant wait for:

-the next hok yau concert
-rogers cup
-being in shape
-doing real work at work
-sleeping in



posted by jonathan at 10:11 p.m. ||

really interesting article on the chinese basketball team: http://query.nytimes.com/gst/fullpage.html?res=9A04E1D71138F930A15752C1A9659C8B63&sec=&spon=&pagewanted=1
i love genius


posted by jonathan at 10:04 p.m. ||

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