Logic has no imagination "Failing isn't the end of the world. Quitting is."
- moi?

"At the end of this, no one will remember what you said. But people will remember what you do."
- Arthur Smith, C.E.O. of GS1 Canada

"i want what all men want. i just want it more."
- Kobe Bryant

"Heart is what separates the good from the great"
- Michael Jordan

only the struggle makes it worth it...
only the pain makes it sweet...
and only victory is the answer"

- Nike

"When that blood gets riled up, you're still going to see some of what they say is immaturity."

"It's not what you know. It's what you can prove."
-Denzel Washington in Training Day
Kanye West - I Wonder
Find your dreams come true
And I wonder if you know
What it means, what it means

And I wonder if you know
What it means, what it means
And I wonder if you know
What it means to find your dreams

I've been waiting on this my whole life
These dreams be waking me up at night
You say I think I'm never wrong
You know what, maybe you're right, aight


You say he get on your fucking nerves
You hope that he get what he deserves, word
Do you even remember what the issue is
You just trying to find where the tissue is
You can still be who you wish you is
It ain't happen yet
And that's what the intuition is
When you hop back in the car
Drive back to the crib
Run back to their arms
The smokescreens
The chokes and the screams
You ever wonder what it all really mean


And I'm back on my grind
A psychic read my lifeline
Told me in my lifetime
My name would help light up the Chicago skyline
And that's what I'm
Seven o'clock, that's primetime
Heaven'll watch, God calling from the hot lines
Why he keep giving me hot lines
I'm a star, how could I not shine
How many ladies in the house
How many ladies in the house without a spouse
Something in your blouse got me feeling so aroused
What you about
On that independent shit
Trade it all for a husband and some kids
You ever wonder what it all really mean
You ever wonder if you'll find your dreams
Sunday, September 30, 2007

i wanted to cry today...

everything that could've gone wrong, did...

i didnt wanna fight through it..

white flag almost came out

dry heave x 5
sick stomach x 5mins


posted by jonathan at 11:31 p.m. ||

Saturday, September 29, 2007






t minus 16 hours.

goal: 20:30

posted by jonathan at 3:41 p.m. ||

waking up from a good dream is the hardest thing

everything's going perfect and then the alarm goes off.. or you just wake yourself up.. or worst of all, someone else wakes you up...

snap back to reality. oh, there goes gravity

it's difficult to dream the same good dream twice..

only got 1 shot, 1 opportunity.

dreams 1 day, nightmares the next

i gotta start dreaming first


posted by jonathan at 2:38 p.m. ||

extremely frustrated

why must it be so


posted by jonathan at 3:27 a.m. ||

Friday, September 28, 2007

c'mon... be a man

stop talking

start walking


posted by jonathan at 2:31 a.m. ||

Thursday, September 27, 2007

someone said this was bang on...

shrug.. dont really know...

The Keys to Your Heart

You are attracted to those who are unbridled, untrammeled, and free.

In love, you feel the most alive when things are straight-forward, and you're told that you're loved.

You'd like to your lover to think you are optimistic and happy.

You would be forced to break up with someone who was emotional, moody, and difficult to please.

Your ideal relationship is lasting. You want a relationship that looks to the future... one you can grow with.

Your risk of cheating is zero. You care about society and morality. You would never break a commitment.

You think of marriage as something precious. You'll treasure marriage and treat it as sacred.

In this moment, you think of love as something you thirst for. You'll do anything for love, but you won't fall for it easily.


posted by jonathan at 11:59 p.m. ||




posted by jonathan at 1:44 p.m. ||

stop friggin whining and crying to me

just using me as some kinda venting machine? then when everything is fine and dandy, act like nothing happened?



posted by jonathan at 1:43 a.m. ||



so many ups and downs..

trying to be hopeful


posted by jonathan at 1:18 a.m. ||

Monday, September 24, 2007




posted by jonathan at 6:53 p.m. ||

Sunday, September 23, 2007

my arm has been pus-ing the whole day...

i think polysporin saved my life AGAIN

they dont make many bandages this big...


posted by jonathan at 11:58 p.m. ||

even the best fall down sometime

but do they get KO'd... or do they get back up?

are they washed up?


posted by jonathan at 11:38 p.m. ||

when a car hits a pedestrian, it's the driver's fault, but the pedestrian's loss

your fault
my loss


posted by jonathan at 10:25 p.m. ||

Friday, September 21, 2007


i feel bad for billy bob


posted by jonathan at 11:37 p.m. ||

both are characters in the same book.

their paths cross

but only as a stepping stone to something bigger

the encounter is special and is self-revealing

interesting read

no, this book actually exists, and im not talking about the 'obvious'

such is life

moments are good. moments are special

they last forever.... in our heads....

much longer and more meaningful than the lifetimes spent together by some ppl


posted by jonathan at 2:10 p.m. ||

who am i?


posted by jonathan at 4:02 a.m. ||

Thursday, September 20, 2007

my head is pounding.. but i gotta get this done.. didnt sleep much.. have to dress to impress in a few hours time...

some potpourri: http://music.yahoo.com/read/news/12176343

crazy, crazy, crazy

kevin federline, lol.


posted by jonathan at 4:20 p.m. ||

crunch time

i should be used to this?

but im not

nervous like crazy

procrastinating like mad


posted by jonathan at 2:53 a.m. ||

Wednesday, September 19, 2007

i learned about my life in one of the readings i did for accounting theory class today...

how odd

will i crash? will i fall?


posted by jonathan at 12:43 a.m. ||

Tuesday, September 18, 2007

i have to wake up in 4 hours... im not going to survive am i...

you know it's late when no one is online on facebook

how do ppl do it...

or am i just spoiled with adequate sleep the past few years?


posted by jonathan at 4:20 a.m. ||

i feel like jessie in saved by the bell right now...

i feel like jessie at 33 secs: NO TIME! THERE'S NEVER ANY TIME!...


posted by jonathan at 1:22 a.m. ||

Monday, September 17, 2007

i dont get to sleep this month do i.... =(

gonna be a TOUGH TOUGH grind....

gotta pull a wayback playback from my highschool days and just go a whole month with minimal sleep...

might be too old for this..


posted by jonathan at 11:55 p.m. ||

being results oriented is the only way to cut it in the business world

no one gives you a fat contract for trying your best

another reason FOR being results-oriented


posted by jonathan at 12:48 a.m. ||

Sunday, September 16, 2007

one might get killed doing God's work.. which isnt to say it's not part of God's plan


God is good all the time. God does not change. so why do our circumstances suck?

God uses it to mold us into who we are to become.


well, at least what philpott told me this morning


what to do: the 'right' thing, or to adminster justice?


posted by jonathan at 4:06 p.m. ||

Saturday, September 15, 2007

I don't know if you got a man or not,
If you made plans or not
God put me in the plans or not
I'm trippin' this drink got me sayin' a lot
But I know that God put you in front of me

So how the hell could you front on me?
There's a thousand you's, there's only one of me
I'm trippin', I'm caught up in the moment right?


posted by jonathan at 4:37 p.m. ||

Friday, September 14, 2007

and i am contemplating matters

all this cling and clatter

in my head


posted by jonathan at 4:02 p.m. ||

the world was all right again today... almost... guess nothing can be perfect

it was a good day

snap back to reality again

motivated and determined


posted by jonathan at 12:45 a.m. ||

Tuesday, September 11, 2007

john grisham, welcome to my dreams. thank you for invading. maybe your book rainmaker really does make a great impression on me

what an insane dream

my world and john grisham's world collided

maybe im a character in one of his books


posted by jonathan at 11:36 p.m. ||

Monday, September 10, 2007

i am back

it's been forever

information overload the past week...

need to catch up with everybody...

it's like there's too much time and not enough time


life cannot be lived by sports cliches... why spew it



posted by jonathan at 11:36 p.m. ||

Tuesday, September 04, 2007

im a dunce

please forgive me

history only repeats itself

again, i know nothing.

ppl need to act and assume i know nothing, because most of the time, thats how it is

im a dork


posted by jonathan at 11:22 a.m. ||

Monday, September 03, 2007

there are events A, B, C, D, and E

during A, i know and can predict B, C, and D because of various reasons. just cause i know.. somethings in life you just know... just like B, C, and D... the thing i DONT know is E.. cause E is hard to find out.. cause only one person knows what E is.. and i dont think that person knows it yet

the question is: does knowing B, C, and D matter at all.. if so, how?

another question: is event E that important..


posted by jonathan at 5:54 p.m. ||

i know absolutely nothing

i wish i knew

burning question for years

sometimes i wish i knew everything

but knowledge isnt as useful as one might think sometimes

do i really want to know? only if it's a positive answer


posted by jonathan at 12:00 p.m. ||

Sunday, September 02, 2007

again.. i dont think things really change in the world.. it's the same problems over and over again.. just diff ppl dealing with them at diff times

ppl arent all of a sudden stuck in a rut at the same time..

it only feels this way to me because i havent had to deal with these problems before.. i was so preoccupied before in my own little world that i didnt know what other ppl dealt with... i didnt have these problems before... now that my eyes have been open, i experience it. i can relate.. i was out of touch with the human race for the longest time

and im truly sorry i've been a horrible person/friend. i thank ppl for their forgiveness and grace.

things dont change. ppl change.

it's all about attitude and perspective


posted by jonathan at 10:37 p.m. ||

the funniest thing is that i dont think the person knows what he/she wants...

all the talk about knowing this and that.. but deep down inside, doesnt know what he/she wants.. just knows what he/she doesnt want

leading ppl on is baddddddddddd... but the attention is temporarily fulfilling

reminds me of highschool


i think it's a cycle..

you think you know all.. and you act all mature and stuff...

time passes

then you realize you know nothing at all... and knowing that you know nothing is humbling...

time passes

knowing that you know nothing is no longer humbling.. it makes you think you know everything...

time passes

go back to step 1

rinse, lather, and repeat

knowing that you know nothing is nirvana


posted by jonathan at 3:50 p.m. ||

Saturday, September 01, 2007

if i want something, i really really want it..

thats why i dont decide to want something that easily...

cause when i do, i'd like to go all out for it.. 100%..

and it really really sucks when i cant get it

and it's not who/what you think either..


posted by jonathan at 2:34 p.m. ||

damn it, damn it, damn it, damn it, damn it

this SEVERELY decreases my chances...

oh my @#)$@#)(^@#(%(#@%$!!!

i have no faith in myself


posted by jonathan at 12:54 p.m. ||

it feels like this world has something to tell me

it feels like everyone around me has something that they know and i dunno.. and that im not allowed to know...

what is this thing?

tell me ppl!

dont hold secrets..


posted by jonathan at 4:11 a.m. ||

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