Logic has no imagination
"Failing isn't the end of the world. Quitting is."
- moi?
"At the end of this, no one will remember what you said. But people will remember what you do."
- Arthur Smith, C.E.O. of GS1 Canada
"i want what all men want. i just want it more."
- Kobe Bryant
"Heart is what separates the good from the great"
- Michael Jordan
"Sometimes...
only the struggle makes it worth it...
only the pain makes it sweet...
and only victory is the answer"
- Nike
"When that blood gets riled up, you're still going to see some of what they say is immaturity."
"It's not what you know. It's what you can prove."
-Denzel Washington in Training Day
Lyrics:
Kanye West - I Wonder
Find your dreams come true
And I wonder if you know
What it means, what it means
[chorus]
And I wonder if you know
What it means, what it means
And I wonder if you know
What it means to find your dreams
I've been waiting on this my whole life
These dreams be waking me up at night
You say I think I'm never wrong
You know what, maybe you're right, aight
[chorus]
You say he get on your fucking nerves
You hope that he get what he deserves, word
Do you even remember what the issue is
You just trying to find where the tissue is
You can still be who you wish you is
It ain't happen yet
And that's what the intuition is
When you hop back in the car
Drive back to the crib
Run back to their arms
The smokescreens
The chokes and the screams
You ever wonder what it all really mean
[chorus]
And I'm back on my grind
A psychic read my lifeline
Told me in my lifetime
My name would help light up the Chicago skyline
And that's what I'm
Seven o'clock, that's primetime
Heaven'll watch, God calling from the hot lines
Why he keep giving me hot lines
I'm a star, how could I not shine
How many ladies in the house
How many ladies in the house without a spouse
Something in your blouse got me feeling so aroused
What you about
On that independent shit
Trade it all for a husband and some kids
You ever wonder what it all really mean
You ever wonder if you'll find your dreams
Thursday, July 03, 2003
Jonathan Tang vs. Edmond Kam
my whole life, i've had to deal with comparisons to my cousin in HK... i've been constantly told by my mother and relatives that edmond does this, edmond does that... edmond has this, edmond has that... edmond got 1st place in this, edmond plays this... i'm FREAKING SICK of it... shut up all of you
here is what i've been told:
-edmond got 1st place in his grade in marks
-edmond plays the violin
-edmond has a girlfriend
-edmond got rid of his zits
-edmond cares for his parents
-edmond is the perfect son
-edmond eats a well-balanced diet
-etc.
you know what? shut up! i've been told i'm not as good as him... how do my relatives judge? what do they judge me based on? that my marks are not as good/high as his? see the problem here is.... they dont know my marks... but since in their eyes, the HK education standards are much higher and intelligent than canada's, he must be better.. wow, edmond plays an insturment, he is so much more gifted than me... i chose sports over music, so that makes me inferior of course... wow,edmond has a gf, he must be much more better-looking and attractive than me... wow, edmond has no zits, he's so much superior..
i truly believe that most of my relatives are ashamed of me... i truly believe that my mother would much rather have edmond as her son than me... why? let's see... my mother has told me to fuck off,but never to edmond... my mother has told me that if i dont act like and grow up to be him, i will go to jail... my mother speaks highly of edmond's marks and achievements but doesnt even speak to me about anything i do.... she has told me to talk to edmond more so i can learn from him... I'M SICK OF IT
last week, my mother asked me why i havent emailed/talked to edmond,and i'm like "i dunno".. then she gets angry that i havent and i half-snapped... i said that if he wanted to talk to me then he would initiate a conversation...and that set my mother off about how my character sucked and would never improve,etc. and that just set me off....
the reason i dont talk to my cousin? there's NOTHING to talk about... we live in 2 diff worlds... and he doesnt like canada... there's a reason he chose not to stay in canada after living here for a year... frankly,he doesnt think much of my family,and neither does most of my relatives on my mom's side... my uncle told me not to go to university if i dont go to ut....like wtf? what's so freaking great bout ut? he also tried to tell me to go into medicine instead... for some reason, the chinese love their children to be doctors.... cause they have a certain status in society....riiiighhhhtttt.... being chinese is all bout having face....i hate that... be yourself....pls....
whatever, think what you all want to think... it's 3am, and i have lots more to get off my chest.... just gotta put it into words....
