Logic has no imagination
"Failing isn't the end of the world. Quitting is."
- moi?
"At the end of this, no one will remember what you said. But people will remember what you do."
- Arthur Smith, C.E.O. of GS1 Canada
"i want what all men want. i just want it more."
- Kobe Bryant
"Heart is what separates the good from the great"
- Michael Jordan
"Sometimes...
only the struggle makes it worth it...
only the pain makes it sweet...
and only victory is the answer"
- Nike
"When that blood gets riled up, you're still going to see some of what they say is immaturity."
"It's not what you know. It's what you can prove."
-Denzel Washington in Training Day
Lyrics:
Kanye West - I Wonder
Find your dreams come true
And I wonder if you know
What it means, what it means
[chorus]
And I wonder if you know
What it means, what it means
And I wonder if you know
What it means to find your dreams
I've been waiting on this my whole life
These dreams be waking me up at night
You say I think I'm never wrong
You know what, maybe you're right, aight
[chorus]
You say he get on your fucking nerves
You hope that he get what he deserves, word
Do you even remember what the issue is
You just trying to find where the tissue is
You can still be who you wish you is
It ain't happen yet
And that's what the intuition is
When you hop back in the car
Drive back to the crib
Run back to their arms
The smokescreens
The chokes and the screams
You ever wonder what it all really mean
[chorus]
And I'm back on my grind
A psychic read my lifeline
Told me in my lifetime
My name would help light up the Chicago skyline
And that's what I'm
Seven o'clock, that's primetime
Heaven'll watch, God calling from the hot lines
Why he keep giving me hot lines
I'm a star, how could I not shine
How many ladies in the house
How many ladies in the house without a spouse
Something in your blouse got me feeling so aroused
What you about
On that independent shit
Trade it all for a husband and some kids
You ever wonder what it all really mean
You ever wonder if you'll find your dreams
Friday, February 29, 2008
i had a dream about shooting 2 tying free throws at the end of a bball game...
except the bball was a sock... and i had to somehow shoot the sock into the net 12 ft in front of me and 10 ft high... so yeh
weird dream
*to be erased. just to remind self
and the other part of my dream was wrestling.. and doing a leg drop.. wtf indeed
i lack common sense.. like i dunno what spices match well with what.. what kinda pasta to use with what kinda meat or vegetables...
but some ppl lack complete common sense.. like not knowing when to leave the room.. or sensing when something is weird...
man, i just find that a lot of ppl in ccf lack complete social skills
is it because they're 'christian?' that they're accepted 'for who they are?'
what is this bullshit that the christian circle accepts ppl 'for who they are' and doesnt 'judge'... that they only wanna build ppl up in their 'christian faith' and everything else 'doesnt matter?'
if you wanna better ppl, let them know what to work on. dont just write it off as being 'quirky'.. if you're gonna do that, then dont make fun of them behind their back
or is that too hard to do? that being 2 faced is a lot easier? that way you look like the good christian and you get a good laugh behind their backs
either way, social skills are non-existant for a lot of ccfers.. especially guys... i dunno why.. must be the bubble.. hell, what if im like that...
but the lack of social skills completely frustrate me. hope nobody shoots me the next time i tell someone to shut up and get the fuck out
i spent valentine's day eating sushi... yaaaaaaaaaaa.. finally had it after being deprived for 6 months.. and i ate it with 4 random other ppl.. after tai chi class, i went to buy stamps for someone i have to mail.. bumped into my friend there.. said he was going to sushi and asked me to go.. im like ??? i wont know anyone.. then he claimed he only knew 1 other person going as well.. so in the end, it was 3 chinese guys and 2 brown girls in a japanese sushi buffet restaurant.. and we had a grand ol' time.. crazy and spontaneous.. nice...
....and i forfeited going to nyc....
while waiting for a sushi buffet table, we went in a random store called 'cheapies' in downtown hamilton.... it's so easy to shop for a guy.. everything there was COOL could be given to a guy... shopping for a girl is completely different.. there's no 'cool' things for girls... being a girl is so much easier... ah, the harsh times of being a guy... HAHAHA
i dont even get a thrill at the games anymore.. maybe it's cause the nets play horrible offense.. but i think it's more that the crowd sucks.. stupid jokes, stupid insults, stupid chants.. at least come up with something new.. everyone acts like the bitter ex who got dumped.. and now will badmouth the ex even though their life was the greatest when the ex was with them..
i lost my water bottle for the 3rd time this year.. the first 2 times my friends picked it up for me.. this time.. i have no clue where it is.. somewhere in the gym building, but it's huge.. im trying to retrace my steps in my head but my memory is absolutely horrible.. sign of old age.. hellz
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im up to 4 meals a day now... im not talking small portions either...
typing with a jammed finger is hard... washing dishes with a jammed finger is even harder.. maybe my housemates will do it for me, haha
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most ppl i know compare themselves to the average. especially when it comes to school. say the average of the test was a 65... ppl will immediate look at their mark to see where it is relative to the average...
thats always been a weird concept to me....
i dont look for the average.. i hope to see all the marks listed. then i scan for the highest mark. i take a look at the highest mark.. i see if it's me. if it is, good. if it's not, i find out where my mark is relative to the highest... then i wonder why mine's not the highest...
i dont compare myself to the average.. because i get no satisfaction being average or "above average".. i compare myself to the best. because i want to be the best. nobody cares for #2. i want to be #1
i shot 0/5 from the ft line today in my 2nd game.. thats absolutely ugly.. i had no confidence in the shot.. nasty. shot like shaq daddy
it's such a shame when ppl have skill but cant complement it with smarts.. so many dumb players out there...
so this friend, whom i respect to various degrees, invited her friend to play on the ccf team today.. which was fine, cause it lacked players... probably CAUSE IT'S -32 DEGREES OUTSIDE!!!.. but anyway.. she told me to "be nice to him because he's interested in christianity but not a christian yet"... my only response was..
facebook, what do you mean none of my friends havent been on in the past 5minutes? did i finally find a time when no one's on facebook?
kinda still hyper...
went from 12 hours of studying to 3, 4 hours of 'dancing'... 'dancing' because i dont really dance. i just move. but hey, whatever, hahahaha.... at least my feet dont hurt.. like a lot of ppl i know, kakaka...
charity ball was a blast. so much work for a few hours...
random blog visiting, i notice ppl are stressed over school... noticeably first years... they're all "OMG, WTF, WHAT THE HELL AM I GONNA DO???? I DONT WANNA DISAPPOINT MY PARENTS, AHHHHHHhh, IM FEELING THIS AND THAT"
is it bad if i... roll my eyes, half smirk, and even roflcopter at them?
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anyway...
my thoughts are kinda lingering towards summer now... thats bad... i was thinking about it while i took a 20mins break from my midterm today... i was literally daydreaming... during a 1hourish test... kakaka
i got a tattoo today at vaughn mills... will unveil it and post pics after friday... until then.. i need to hermit and study.... but, please, all bloggers, please make a million posts this week so that i can procrastinate and read.. thanks.. im serious...
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who would've thought mixing and matching colours would be so much fun, yet so much work...... decisions decisions
i just added another thing to what im doing this term.. chess club! havent played in the chess club since 1st and 2nd year.. played chess since i was little.. like maybe 6 years old? no good until gr 7 or 8.. i remember being devestated losing in the semi finals in gr 4.. i went through the field easily just by knowing how the pieces worked, but lost to someone who played a lot more than i did.. then my interest just grew... played online a LOT since junior high.. peaked in high school.. joined the chess club in gr 12 cause there actually was one.. had a few good matches.. i found that most players in these chess clubs are beginners or there's maybe 1 really good player... and some below my ability.. i cant find many that are of my ability..
so i started playing again tonight.. just had 1 match, to see what the competition was like.. just played a quick game with the organizer of the chess club.. beat him no sweat.. he seemed surprised.. shrug.. my housemate was surprised i was good at chess... seems like everyone is.. guess i never stop surprising ppl.. nothing im doing this term was expected by anyone.. shrug.. i'll just keep doing what i do...
coincidentally, stumbled upon this puzzle on rfd tonight.. spent 10-15mins but i finally solved it i think.. i posted the solution on there, but no need to link the thread... here it is
yes... yes... im a nerd/geek for playing chess... bite me
i also bought a book called 'kings of new york' by michael weinreb for myself over the christmas break.. recommended by bill simmons, the sports guy.. started it the few times i've been home this term.. good read so far
one thing i didnt do today was study much.. im so screwed.. why dont i like school?
