Logic has no imagination
"Failing isn't the end of the world. Quitting is."
- moi?
"At the end of this, no one will remember what you said. But people will remember what you do."
- Arthur Smith, C.E.O. of GS1 Canada
"i want what all men want. i just want it more."
- Kobe Bryant
"Heart is what separates the good from the great"
- Michael Jordan
"Sometimes...
only the struggle makes it worth it...
only the pain makes it sweet...
and only victory is the answer"
- Nike
"When that blood gets riled up, you're still going to see some of what they say is immaturity."
"It's not what you know. It's what you can prove."
-Denzel Washington in Training Day
Lyrics:
Kanye West - I Wonder
Find your dreams come true
And I wonder if you know
What it means, what it means
[chorus]
And I wonder if you know
What it means, what it means
And I wonder if you know
What it means to find your dreams
I've been waiting on this my whole life
These dreams be waking me up at night
You say I think I'm never wrong
You know what, maybe you're right, aight
[chorus]
You say he get on your fucking nerves
You hope that he get what he deserves, word
Do you even remember what the issue is
You just trying to find where the tissue is
You can still be who you wish you is
It ain't happen yet
And that's what the intuition is
When you hop back in the car
Drive back to the crib
Run back to their arms
The smokescreens
The chokes and the screams
You ever wonder what it all really mean
[chorus]
And I'm back on my grind
A psychic read my lifeline
Told me in my lifetime
My name would help light up the Chicago skyline
And that's what I'm
Seven o'clock, that's primetime
Heaven'll watch, God calling from the hot lines
Why he keep giving me hot lines
I'm a star, how could I not shine
How many ladies in the house
How many ladies in the house without a spouse
Something in your blouse got me feeling so aroused
What you about
On that independent shit
Trade it all for a husband and some kids
You ever wonder what it all really mean
You ever wonder if you'll find your dreams
Thursday, January 31, 2008
i think im gonna miss being a student.. a lot of fun things to do
it's a shame that school has to get in the way of all the fun things
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trying not to overthink it...is it weird that it's hard to be natural?
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i have 5 days off per week.. why does it feel like i have 0 days off? am i going insane? is someone ripping me off timewise? do i only get 15hours in a day or something? i dont even get to sleep like a pig!
what are the effin chances? what the hell. sigh. what am i being taught here... did i make a wrong decision already on the long term decision??? how cruel
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whats the fascination with ross? chandler and joey are obviously funnier.. but both my housemates like ross the best... cause joey is too dumb and chandler isnt as... good?
sitting here in the library bores me.. too bad internet is cut off at home till someone removes their virus.. but it's good i suppose.. i can theoretically get stuff done.. though that didnt happen last night... im the opposite of a lean mean studying machine
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who knew charity ball would take so much work?
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going to sleep hungry is a horrible feeling.. i had multiple dreams of eating food.. which made me even more hungry during my sleep.. AHHHHHHHHHHHHH
i had to make one of the biggest decisions of my life this week.. actually, just a little bit more than 24 hours ago... it will impact my life for the next 5 years.. i debated it for the longest time... acting at the deadline.. last minute literally...
i still dunno if it's the best decision.. but cant live with regrets..
i guess i cant believe the impact it has.. still hasnt hit me... cant fathom it i guess... maybe im just trying not to think about it.. future is scary sometimes... even when you somewhat control it...
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gotta pick up the intensity... snap back to reality
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but first... gonna watch federer... he's on at 330am. lets beat dorkovic!
im sick of playing by the rules and getting beat by ppl who break the rules..
whats my incentive of playing by the rules.. playing clean and pure? everyone else is playing dirty, hurting me, and getting away with it...
im debating whether i should be the dirtiest player in the game.. cause i can be... no one will like it.. but it will get the job done...
what to do, what to do?
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apologies in advance to my housemate...
i never wake up to my alarm clock.. it makes a buzzing noise.. almost like a fire alarm... sometimes my housemate hears it from across the hall and screams at me to turn it off at like 7am..
well... i hid my alarm in her room today... and well.. it's set to 4ish... A.M!. so in about 3 hours time, someone will be up...
PERSONAL PROFILE I try to be the leader of the team, since someone has to be and I'm the only one who seems to be interested in order. It's often frustrating to choreograph tactics only to see them disappear in an emotional outburst from one of my brothers. I take Ninjitsu very seriously, as it should be. As it must be. Ninjitsu is not a game!
I train diligently and read up on strategy to better prepare my family for times of duress. I've been accused of being too stringent in my expectations, but I don't agree with that assessment. I'm not striving to be perfect, only perfectly proficient. Perhaps when we are out of imminent danger, I will relax, but a proper ninja is ALWAYS prepared, and always three steps ahead of any nemesis. That takes hard work and dedication.
I love my family more than life itself, so I feel responsible to ensure their protection. Master Splinter is very capable of taking care of himself, but my brothers worry me. I feel that I must be there to compensate for their lack of focus. I guess this may seem a little hard-nosed, but if you were in my shoes, I think you'd agree that someone has to play the "heavy."
With that aside, I do realize the need for fun and relaxation. While I often disagree with Raphael, he is my brother, and I enjoy the times that we spend goofing off. I just wish that he'd try to see things from some other perspective than his own (something he no doubt says about me as well!)
My favorite times are at dinner, when the five of us sit together and listen to Master Splinter tell stories and teach lessons.
im told by doyle brunson that poker isnt really about winning or losing a hand. it's ultimately about making the right decision.. knowing when to call, when to fold, when to raise, when to go all in
is this the same for life choices...
not about winning or losing? it's funny, cause it seems everything is about winning or losing.. but i guess anything can happen to make ppl win or lose.. is that called luck? making the right decision sounds like skill.. what if you make the right decision but you lose? you're skilled but unlucky? would you rather be skilled and unlucky or unskilled but lucky? im wondering cause...
i need to make an important decision.. do i make the right decision and see where luck brings me.. or flip a coin, see what decision i should make, and solely rely on luck?
no hidden meaning, no hidden agenda. i just like it, dunno why... though i'd really prefer ppl to enunciate these days..
Chris Brown - With You
I need you boo, (oh) I gotta see you boo (hey) And the hearts all over the world tonight, Said the hearts all over the world tonight [x2]
[Verse 1] Hey! Little mama, Ooh, you're a stunner Hot..little figure, Yes, you're a winner And I'm so glad to be yours, You're a class all your own And.. Oh, little cutie When..you talk to me I swear..the whole world stops You're my sweetheart And I'm so glad that you are mine You are one of a kind and..
[Bridge] You mean to me What I mean to you and.. Together baby, There is nothing we won't do 'cause if I got you, I don't need money, I don't need cars, Girl, you're my all. And..
[Chorus:] Oh! I'm into you, And girl, No one else would do, 'cause with every kiss and every hug, You make me fall in love, And now I know I can't be the only one, I bet there heart's all over the world tonight, With the love of they life who feel.. Wat I feel when I'm
With you [x5] Girl.. With you [x5]
[Verse 2] Oh girl! I don't want nobody else, Without you, there's no one left then, You're like Jordans on Saturday, I gotta have you and I cannot wait now, Hey! Little shawty, Say you care for me, You know I care for you, You know...that I'll be true, You know that I won't lie, You know that I would try, To be your everything..yeah..
[Bridge] 'cause if I got you, I don't need money, I don't need cars, Girl, you're my all. And..
[Chorus]
With you [x5] Oh.. With you [x5] Yeah Heh..
[Bridge 2] And I.. Will never try to deny, that you're my whole life, 'cause if you ever let me go, I would die.. So I won't front, I don't need another woman, I just need your all and nothing, 'cause if I got that, Then I'll be straight Baby, you're the best part of my day
I need you boo, I gotta see you boo And the hearts all over the world tonight, Said the hearts all over the world tonight [x2] Woo Oh.. Yeah They need it boo, They gotta see their boo, Said the hearts all over the world tonight, Hearts all over the world tonight [x2]
my ingenius idea and my pet peeve that i discovered while at the library just now:
ok, my pet peeve first. im looking through course outlines and there's the academic dishonesty section where it states things must be sent in through turnitin.com, but students are not forced to do that. if they dont wanna submit it through that, they can send in an electronic copy which would be subject to a "google search." what the fuck is a 'google search'? why google? cause it's the only thing they know on the internet? my pet peeve is that the university believes it can catch plagurism via simple crappy sites such as turnitin and a friggin SEARCH ENGINE. oh my goodness. universities must be run by lazy and stupid fags who dont have anything better to do. of course, im sure this method will catch the stupid and lazy cheaters out there. ironically, the only ppl they'll catch are the ppl just like themselves. for the smart and lazy ppl out there, they'll be able to avoid this easily.
anyway, so my ingenius idea is to copy and paste the assignments/papers i write this term into a webpage and post it on the net before i hand it in. then, when they search my writing, they'll find it, word for word on their little anti-cheating devices. then they'll catch me and expel me forever for being a cheating scum bag. then i'll tell them to shut the hell up and that they're idiots... ahhhh... that moment would be sweet. the only negative aspect of this is that these ppl might be too stupid to realize that the webpage is mine even when i prove it to them. they could claim many things i suppose. stupidity and moronism has no limits
even though im not who i was before.. i can still be vicious... even though i've retired from the game for a while, i can still play it.. so dont play me for a fool.
fool me once, shame on you fool me twice, shame on me
you really think im an idiot? i can ruin you if i want. but thats not what friends do
5km in 24mins +/- a few seconds today.. i need a stopwatch for myself.. that way i can do interval training too.. i only estimate my time by looking at the digital clock a few floors down, haha.. i tried to put in a consistent effort today.. i could go faster.. but i dunno how much faster.. i think i can hit 22:30 no problem... but every second under that i would have to push... maybe next week
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so i actually earned this.. by doing well on a test in a pressure unexpected situation.. i succeeded... i failed when i had to rely on 'networking' and making good first impressions.. and being able to answer standardized retarded questions... very interesting
5km in a little bit over 25mins today... depressing.. it was like i was stuck in 1st gear the whole time.. couldnt get myself to run faster... finished strong.. but that doesnt mean much when i was going so slow the whole time.. like my legs were frozen or something
guess im not in shape.. thats ok, time to build it up
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i dont like fakers... i think my housemates are fakers.....
got back into running today... 5km in a little less than 25mins.. was an easy run.. though i hate running in circles.. and the ventilation is weird.. never had to push it... didnt know what kinda shape i was in.. but im content i suppose
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the cost is everything.. do i wanna pay? i'd definitely be broke... huge risk/reward...
ok, those who know me, know i hate lebron more than any player in the world..
but i loved how he killed the raptors..
if there's anything i hate more than lebron, it's the raptors and chris bosh and all its fans..
hahahaha, suckasssssssssssss
girls = lose!
oh ya, keep voting for chris bosh, LOL *(note, sarcasm. chris bosh sucks. why the hell would you vote for him? oh right, raptors fans are stupid and irrational like leafs fans, kakaka)
"When making a decision of minor importance, I have always found it advantageous to consider all the pros and cons. In vital matters, however, such as the choice of a mate or a profession, the decision should come from the unconscious, from somewhere within ourselves. In the important decisions of personal life, we should be governed, I think, by the deep inner needs of our nature."
