Logic has no imagination
"Failing isn't the end of the world. Quitting is."
- moi?
"At the end of this, no one will remember what you said. But people will remember what you do."
- Arthur Smith, C.E.O. of GS1 Canada
"i want what all men want. i just want it more."
- Kobe Bryant
"Heart is what separates the good from the great"
- Michael Jordan
"Sometimes...
only the struggle makes it worth it...
only the pain makes it sweet...
and only victory is the answer"
- Nike
"When that blood gets riled up, you're still going to see some of what they say is immaturity."
"It's not what you know. It's what you can prove."
-Denzel Washington in Training Day
Lyrics:
Kanye West - I Wonder
Find your dreams come true
And I wonder if you know
What it means, what it means
[chorus]
And I wonder if you know
What it means, what it means
And I wonder if you know
What it means to find your dreams
I've been waiting on this my whole life
These dreams be waking me up at night
You say I think I'm never wrong
You know what, maybe you're right, aight
[chorus]
You say he get on your fucking nerves
You hope that he get what he deserves, word
Do you even remember what the issue is
You just trying to find where the tissue is
You can still be who you wish you is
It ain't happen yet
And that's what the intuition is
When you hop back in the car
Drive back to the crib
Run back to their arms
The smokescreens
The chokes and the screams
You ever wonder what it all really mean
[chorus]
And I'm back on my grind
A psychic read my lifeline
Told me in my lifetime
My name would help light up the Chicago skyline
And that's what I'm
Seven o'clock, that's primetime
Heaven'll watch, God calling from the hot lines
Why he keep giving me hot lines
I'm a star, how could I not shine
How many ladies in the house
How many ladies in the house without a spouse
Something in your blouse got me feeling so aroused
What you about
On that independent shit
Trade it all for a husband and some kids
You ever wonder what it all really mean
You ever wonder if you'll find your dreams
Wednesday, December 31, 2003
i lied, im not posting bout my year in review....yet
this freaking flu/me being dizzy and wanna vomit at times is driving me crazy....
tried playing ball tonight and i could barely make it up and down the court...i was winded after a min.... how i lasted for 2 hours is beyond me... how in the world did michael jordan score 45 pts with the flu in the nba FINALS?
man, i've had this thing for 2 weeks now... make it go away!!!!! ~flails arms~ is flail a word?
i havent blogged something worthwhile in a long time... and it will continue on... lets blog bout the important stuff first...
those going going to Urbana.. hope you guys have the experience of a lifetime.. experience God, i mean, you guys paid $1000, get your money's worth, heh.. i will definitely be praying
blah, i had all this stuff i wanted to blog bout in my head.. lets see how much i can remember...
Purpose Driven Life is a wonderful book to read... i finished day 3 today... going a chapter a day like the book said.. i hope a lot of ppl will read it
the Christmas musical was great fun, good to see ppl again, but the kids performed great.. it was called.... Dr. Newheart's Christmas Cure i believe.. by Kathie Hill i believe.. music was good, raps were hilarious, and the speaker was not boring, heh.. lots of chinese used.. hmmmmm
california was a learning experience... quick recap of what i did:
day 1 (dec 15): wake up at 6am, scare sarah, fly, 'breakfast', land, lunch, sit, see cousin's who were surprised to see me (they've never seen me before), dinner with cousin, felt sick, almost barfed, ate nothing, watched miami lose, got frustrated, slept
day 2: sat around, ate nothing for breakfast, went to yum cha, ate nothing at that, came back, slept, woke up for dinner, ate nothing, watched some ball, slept
day 3: went to see doctor since relatives didnt know whats wrong with me, got checked, got a CT scan, went to eat something, sat around, slept, watched ball, dinner, watched ball, slept... oh yeh, i was supposed to go on a tour that was going to las vegas and the grand canyon.. but i couldnt, could i?
day 4: ate breakfast, realized that i could use the net, went on the net for 2 hours, went exploring by myself for 3, 4 hours, watched ball, dinner, slept
day 5: sat around, ate, watched ball, slept, net wasnt working, felt sick again
day 6: went to santa anita mall, aunt gave me Christmas money which i gave to her 2 daughters as their Christmas presents from me, i'm so cheap eh, went to eat japanese food with all relatives in cali, slept
day 7: went to church, dinner at a chinese vegetarian place, went on net, slept
day 8: went to santa monica beach, santa monica mall, universal studios citiwalk, watched tv, slept
day 9: pack up, get caught up in traffic, fly, 'lunch', land, wait forever for luggage, come home... home sweet home
so my time in california... was not exciting lets just say... that can happen when you're stuck with... older relatives... and a lack of transportation is a problem as well.. i can only walk so many places..and relatives wouldnt tell me how to get to places using public transportation...
few things i observed on the trip:
- ppl like to generalize and say 'canada' when they talk about and mean 'toronto'
- the elderly like to believe they're unbiased and only speak the truth
- the elderly's version of stories vary each time they tell it
- the elderly like to act like they're above rules and regulations and the law
- the church i was in had an american flag at the front of the stage
expanding on that observation.. i've been to churches in mississauga and hk, and in the ones i've been in, i've never seen any type of flag.. by seeing a flag, i feel that they're conveying the fact that the usa is as important as God..which.. i disagree with... i just.. didnt like the fact that there was a flag in the church... but.. thats just me
being home has never felt better.. i checked my marks yesterday morning....and only 3/5 were up... i cant figure out whether they're final marks or just exam marks.... hmmm.... thats enough of that, i'll worry bout it when i'm back at school
action/reaction, cause and effect... oh my... "those who dont learn from history are condemned to repeat it"
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OK, now i will blog bout what i'm very passionate bout.. THE TORONTO FREAKING RAPTORS.. i've watched a lot of college and west coast ball lately, being in california and all, so i havent watched the raptors play much lately.. only a highlight here and there...
BUT THEY CANNOT PLAY D IF THEIR LIFE DEPENDED ON IT.. IT'S RIDICULOUS!! *I* can guard RAUL FREAKING LOPEZ... how can they allow penetration so easily into the paint? what the hell?!?!?! we went from playing all defense to no defense... and those who know how i play ball, know i'm a defensive-minded person... this is driving me crazy.. and how hard is it to BOX OUT AND REBOUND??????? we need a big man... boxing out is not just for the forwards... it's for EVERYBODY to do... i boxed out 6'6" guys in ball before... and i'm only 5'9", 5'10", so it's not like i'm the tallest guy.. i've boxed out smaller and bigger guys... it's possible.. SO WHY CANT THE RAPTORS?? we lose games on defense and by giving up offensive rebounds.. YES, i said "we", i feel like i'm apart of the team... if i'm kevin o'neill, i make the team play defense and do rebounding drills a whole week... forget offense, that comes with the flow of the game... DEFENSE PLSSS!
and speaking of college ball.. college ball is HORRIBLE.. all they do is SHOOT, and ppl are HORRIBLE shooters these days... they NEVER pass to guys who have position in the paint.. i dont care what kind of zone it is, zones are easily boken down with the right strategy.. the point of a zone is to make ppl stay on the perimeter and shoot (the 3-2 zone anyways), and ppl are CONTENT with shooting.. ~sigh~ ~deep breath~
vince carter, pls be smarter and more selfish, thank you..
one prediction: weds, jan 7, 2004, the cleveland cavaliers are coming to town to play the toronto raptors.. i predict the raps win the game 100-99.. vince will win the game by dunking over lebron james at the very last moment, in the process, lebron james' wrist will be broken and his career ended attempting to block vince carter's dunk.. you heard it here first.. thank you
and i guess t-mac was right.. he was gonna take lebron to school like he said he would in his commercial
and yao ate shaq for Christmas like i said he would..... in the first half
on my next post i will have a year in review... it'll be a huge ass post.. if any of you still read it
im in cali.. not as eventful as it should be.. i've been sick.. if my brother reads.. DONT TELL MOM....
i got a few days left to enjoy it... its cold at night... cause there's no heat.. i cant find your foakleys either.. i will try to try to find to them...
by the way, anybody listen to Evanescence - My Immortal? something bout that song.... makes it... a lonely song...
Evanescence - My Immortal
I'm so tired of being here
Suppressed by all my childish fears
And if you have to leave
I wish that you would just leave
'Cause your presence still lingers here
And it won't leave me alone
These wounds won't seem to heal
This pain is just too real
There's just too much that time cannot erase
[CHORUS]
When you cried I'd wipe away all of your tears
When you'd scream I'd fight away all of your fears
I held your hand through all of these years
But you still have
All of me
You used to captivate me
By your resonating light
Now I'm bound by the life you left behind
Your face it haunts
My once pleasant dreams
Your voice it chased away
All the sanity in me
These wounds won't seem to heal
This pain is just too real
There's just too much that time cannot erase
[Chorus]
I've tried so hard to tell myself that you're gone
But though you're still with me
I've been alone all along
what you hold dear and important years ago/last week/a moment ago can mean nothing to you in a matter of seconds... what we valued before may have changed from what we value now... why is that? how can something that used to matter to you so much, taking up your whole mind and time, mean absolutely nothing to you now?
