Logic has no imagination
"Failing isn't the end of the world. Quitting is."
- moi?
"At the end of this, no one will remember what you said. But people will remember what you do."
- Arthur Smith, C.E.O. of GS1 Canada
"i want what all men want. i just want it more."
- Kobe Bryant
"Heart is what separates the good from the great"
- Michael Jordan
"Sometimes...
only the struggle makes it worth it...
only the pain makes it sweet...
and only victory is the answer"
- Nike
"When that blood gets riled up, you're still going to see some of what they say is immaturity."
"It's not what you know. It's what you can prove."
-Denzel Washington in Training Day
Lyrics:
Kanye West - I Wonder
Find your dreams come true
And I wonder if you know
What it means, what it means
[chorus]
And I wonder if you know
What it means, what it means
And I wonder if you know
What it means to find your dreams
I've been waiting on this my whole life
These dreams be waking me up at night
You say I think I'm never wrong
You know what, maybe you're right, aight
[chorus]
You say he get on your fucking nerves
You hope that he get what he deserves, word
Do you even remember what the issue is
You just trying to find where the tissue is
You can still be who you wish you is
It ain't happen yet
And that's what the intuition is
When you hop back in the car
Drive back to the crib
Run back to their arms
The smokescreens
The chokes and the screams
You ever wonder what it all really mean
[chorus]
And I'm back on my grind
A psychic read my lifeline
Told me in my lifetime
My name would help light up the Chicago skyline
And that's what I'm
Seven o'clock, that's primetime
Heaven'll watch, God calling from the hot lines
Why he keep giving me hot lines
I'm a star, how could I not shine
How many ladies in the house
How many ladies in the house without a spouse
Something in your blouse got me feeling so aroused
What you about
On that independent shit
Trade it all for a husband and some kids
You ever wonder what it all really mean
You ever wonder if you'll find your dreams
Sunday, September 28, 2003
at pho after ccf yesterday, a girl says to me, "i know you're jon, i met you last week... i see you sometimes too, but you look so angry when you wear your sunglasses, i was afraid to say hi"...
i found this quite hilarious... do i really look angry most of the time? guess i'm not like many other ppl, who always put on a smile for others.. my natural facial expression just aint a smile.. though i DO smile, contrary to popular opinion, haha...
i like to hide behind my sunglasses.. .whenever there's a hint of sunlight, i always put em on... i like to hide myself, and the sunglasses do exactly that... the eyes give away emotion the best, so if i hide em, ppl wont know what emotion i have... why i try to hide it, i dont know........
sometimes, my instinct tells me that something's not right... but in particular, it tells me when some ppl arent happy.. ppl can put on their faces and smiles for the world each day, but when they go home, the smile and 'happiness' is gone.. i wouldnt call it fakeness... but ppl are putting up a face to the world, so that the world believes nothing is wrong with ppl when they smile... but right now, i have this sense... this sense that something is wrong.. that somebody is not happy.. of course this is very general.. many ppl arent happy right now, but my instinct just told me this out of nowhere.. who is it you ask? pshh, yeh right, haha.. i dont think i've ever revealed names on this, other than once or twice...
ppl dont have to put on a face for the world.. ppl are human.. if ppl are angry, show it, if ppl are sad, show it.. hiding behind a happy face just makes it hurt more deep within... those who know, know..
2nd thing i wanna talk about is doubt... i've always been a confident person.. i didnt care what others thought or said.. if i think i could do or be something, i would set out and try to achieve it.. something must be wrong with me if i start doubting myself.. i think i've semi-doubted myself recently.. my confidence isnt there... it's lacking for some reason, i dunno why... but something is really wrong with me if i doubt myself.. what is wrong with me? i cant figure it out... i need to regain what i once had... my confidence... how? i have no clue in the world....
a discussion came up that basically said that the church (MCBC) is falling apart... more specifically, the higher ups (ppl with power) are basically disagreeing with what to do with the church.. they wanna go in different directions.. rumour has it that this is the real reason pastor Alex left.. I find this completely shocking and disgusting..
this is our church, the leaders should be able to form a consensus and follow whatever is planned.... they are.. our leaders..
of course, this is only what i've heard, i dont know the real truth, or know if it is the truth.. i hope it's not.. but this expansion project has.. ah... been delayed a while hasnt it? i know it's been delayed because of financial issues, but is that it? is there more to it?
whatever the case is, i just hope that the church leadership doesnt fall apart...
something is terribly wrong with me... but i cant figure it out... i seem to have these breakdowns at times... everything seems to be on my mind these days... i'm yearning for the summer once again... at least summer starts early for me now, in april... but i have to work... cause i need the $$$... hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm
i'm physically in the worst shape of my life... i feel obese for some reason... i gotta get back to my workout regime that i had, somewhat, in the summer...
there are 7 types of ppl in uni: the arrogant, the obnoxious, the nerds, the jocks, the insecure, the skippers, and the ones who wont shut up... which one am i? i'm probably a mix of a few of them...
thinking back, i laugh at myself a lot.. because i do such stupid things.. but it seemed the best thing to do back when i did them... live and learn right? right
last thing on my mind: the internet may be the best AND worst invention of all time... many ppl hide behind our computer screens now.. it's disgusting.. including me.. it gives us an excuse to communicate with ppl without being face to face with them... there's good points and bad points to that... no need to expand on that...
back home at mac for the weekend.... visited utm yesterday on the way back... chilled with friends i havent seen in a while (a while being defined as any length of time longer than a week).... it was quite fun... good relaxation off school..... which i'm struggling at...what i'm struggling with is.... focus.. as usual.... not being able to do what i want, instead, being side-tracked by icq/msn/ps2/fun.....
anyways... one thing that RRRRRRRRRRRRRRRREALLY irritates me is when ppl tell others not to judge AND they claim not to judge... it's fine with me if ppl tell others not to judge, as long as they dont claim not to judge as well.... cause they're flat out lying if they claim not to judge..... why? how would i know? cause they're judging by saying it's not right to judge... ppl judge me when they tell me not to judge.... just think bout it....
i know i like to complain and all, but i flat out admit that i dont have it worse off than others.... reading bout others and talking to others has led me to discover more bout them and their hardships..... i'm truly amazed by their strength and courage to share their problems with me/others.... i still havent had enough courage to share it with more ppl....
anyways, just wanna end off with.....SHE IS THE FAKEST TWO-FACED PERSON I KNOW..... ppl who know, know....
can two people from different faiths have a successful romantic relationship? my friends and I had this discussion during the end of summer... it was quite an interesting conversation... this thread on asianavenue is even more interesting since there's even more opinions... click on the link and read... maybe even post... you dont need to be a member to view it... so click.. post a comment here if you wish as well http://www.asianavenue.com/Members/Forums/viewforum.html?FORUM=204258
